Can I scream now?

No exercise today because my back is still hurting. I go to the Dr Thursday and hopefully I can get some meds for the muscle spasms.

Well, today has been a rough day. It started off on the wrong foot and has went to hell. Matt woke up and got Jayda ready for school, as usual. She got dressed and watched some cartoons, as usual. They got ready to go outside to wait on the bus, as usual. Well, Jayda opened up her backpack and handed Matt the papers that were in there from yesterday, since I forgot to do it yesterday. In my defense, Jayda had a good day at school yesterday and got a green piece of paper, but it turned into a red piece of paper on the bus because she kicked a boy on purpose. The aide on the bus told me about it when I got Jayda off the bus, so I was focused on talking to Jayda about that and completely spaced getting the papers out of her bag. Anyway, Jayda handed Matt the papers and one of the showed that they didn't have AM classes today due to staff development. OOPS!!!! At least they didn't go outside and wait on a bus that wasn't coming, right? Well this day off was also on the school calendar, but we don't look at it very often.

Well, this weekend, I happen to have run out of one of my mood stabilizing meds and it has me thrown off really bad mood wise. I meant to call it in Friday and pick it up, but I forgot. Well, our pharmacy isn't open on the weekend except a few hours in the morning on Saturday and by the time I realized I forgot to call it in and get it, they were closed for the weekend. Since I missed 2 days of this medicine, my mood is all whacky. When my mood is off, my OCD takes over. I have been fighting it all day today and I have felt like I was having a nervous breakdown. This is why the day went from starting off on the wrong foot to hell. When I get like this every small thing gets escalated to something major. I hate the feeling, but there is nothing I can do about it. My mood will be out of whack for a few days and I will feel like I am on a roller coaster for the next week or so. I just want to SCREAM when I feel like this.